When trying to explain/justify/sell to myself or others the consciousness perspective I have come to know through ShowtheHellUp! classes and workshops, it has come to my attention that there is a view beyond the benefits that my human nature wants to share with others.
One part of the view is a perspective of and from my mind, the part of me that is obsessed with validating my choices and working hard to keep me safe in the world. My mind is attached to these benefits as justification to continue doing the work, attending class and investigating my surroundings and my mind likes to arrange them this way:
I am experiencing physical benefits such as less aches and pain, less headaches, more restful sleep, nice skin, and a quicker recovery from illness and/or sore muscles.
Mentally I am experiencing a less active hamster on the wheel of my mind, and I find myself moving through mental blocks to make decisions with ease. And probably most beneficial is that once I have an awareness of the environment I have unconsciously created for myself, I have some amazing tools to consciously investigate how my thoughts became these things!
Emotionally, I am growing to appreciate and experience ALL of my emotions. My opinions of anger, joy, grief, worry and fear are changing and as a result I don’t avoid or try to hide my fear or anger or joy. Instead I recognize they are here to help me work through something that no longer serves me. I must admit it isn’t always pleasant in the midst but slowly I am embracing the ebb and flow and this place of unconditional love that I am experiencing as a “result”.
Spiritually, I am experiencing glimpses of knowing a human experience where I no longer judge who I think I am. I know that my life had to and was always going to enfold the way it has and will. This knowledge also includes how everything in my awareness is projection of me and for me and my purpose is to become aware. That’s it. To become aware.
So, my view could stop there, couldn’t it? My mind is quite satisfied with the list of results, benefits, improvements, and changes associated with a consciousness perspective. It seems like a well-rounded list. But what was brought to my attention is that there's a more whole view.
A view that is harder to name because it doesn’t need a label or justification or reward. This view doesn’t need to be categorized like I have above because it is a great universal ocean where everything and anything exists simultaneously and without a need for outcomes.
For now, I will call this the Whole View and describe it as a state of grace in my heart where my mind is so calm it doesn’t interfere or need a result. This is a view from the heart which includes it all and is all. This view comes from before my mind was formed and although not always felt, it is accessible to me at any time. And although hard to describe, I am going to try anyway because, well, I am human.
The Whole View is a place where physical, emotional, mental and spiritual aches or stresses are information. A place where there is no need for the mind to judge and where the heart simply observes. Here the view is one of rest and relax and not the fear responses fight, flight, fear or faint. This is a place where there is no risk to expressing who I think I am and how I feel because the Whole View sees it all and understands the lesson and at the same time has no need to solve or change.
Today, March 26, 2020 I am seeing, hearing, feeling, tasting and touching a global pandemic. My mental state has moments of frazzle and disbelief and my emotions flip from sadness, fear, anger and worry and then back to sadness all within five minutes. Physically, my arse is numb from sitting in on more video calls than ever before.
My mind/fear instinct is to set up schedules or make new routines and have a goal for all of this. However, within that there is a grace, one that you and I have had since before we were born, one that we will always have access to and one we continue to cultivate together by showing the hell up. COVID-19 is inviting us into its unfolding and providing you and me an opportunity to be in our hearts and to do what is in front of us because just as in the times before, what else is there to do?