Are you experiencing an abundance of ticks?
We looked up what the tick is all about, and took some time to investigate. Here's what we noticed.
Is it HOLY SHIT time yet?
Like all of you, I have experienced many painful, scary events in my life that provided the desire to change although I had no idea what that would look like or how I would get it done. For most of my life I did not have the tools to do anything but cope and manage in my perpetual over reaction. Remember what drove you to look for a way to ‘fix’ your life? Remember what caused you to look me up?
You were scared, unhappy, sad, frustrated, and all the things you were doing like dieting, working in a job you hate, sucking up to people you didn’t like, not taking a vacation cause you couldn’t afford it, putting makeup on and buying clothes to help make you feel attractive or hide a part of your body you hate … and on and on and on!
And then you went seeking and found BodyTalk, or ??? and you were excited to have finally found a way to ‘fix’ yourself that would get you the life you had been dreaming about for so long but couldn’t seem to grasp no matter what you did or tried. BodyTalk (or ???) is IT!!! So you start to study and go to workshops and learn all about how the bodymind works – Your biology is your Biography! Intellectually you have it! You can spout off any theory or technique to anyone! Some of us are so good we even teach the stuff!
Fast forward a few years to now maybe and ... how are you doing??? Now, are you in the habit of doing this healing work to change or stay the same? OMG! I am doing the work to stay the same! Change is really fucking scary!
Is it HOLY SHIT time yet?
Intellectually you are way smarter and look pretty slick with all your theories, but you are still scared, unhappy, sad, frustrated, and all the things you are still doing like dieting, working in a job you hate, sucking up to people you don’t like, not taking a vacation cause you can’t afford it, putting makeup on and buying clothes to help make you feel attractive or hide a part of your body you hate, doing yoga turning yourself into a pretzel in fancy gym clothes ... and on and on and on!
You have simply just got better at hiding the real issues! These are deep down inside and cannot be fixed by masking or coping, or adding more information. These things only grow the fear. And the lying about how great your life is now is just that, a LIE! If you build a house on a toxic waste dump no matter what you do to cover it up it will still be there!
Instead of deeply changing yourself by deconstructing the fear and unconsciousness that got you here in this mess, you have actually made the mess bigger - the very perspective meant to help you deconstruct the fear and masks, you have used to build a bigger better wall to hide behind!
True consciousness work, BodyTalk included, proposes that everything in your awareness is a simple projection from your own mind. Consciousness comes first! Consciousness work is meant to deconstruct the fear-based beliefs housed deep in the bodymind, not deny them, build them, and/or replace them with more. This isn’t about becoming an even better coper manager! Oh SHIT!!
Ok….. NOW WHAT???
It was HOLY SHIT TIME NOW!!!!!!
Well this was me up until about 5 years ago – working to hide while pretending to be working to heal. I had been desperately using the guise of BodyTalk to actually appear to do the work but not do it! No one would be able to fault me if they could see how hard I was trying to change and how much I had appeared to have invested in it. Could they? Could I?
I actually didn’t even realize this until my life blew up for real in 2013. KABOOM!
It was HOLY SHIT TIME NOW!!!!!!
I had to lose everything to begin to understand what I had NOT been doing and how deeply afraid I was to actually change for real. It seems to be very scary to even admit this out loud and be willing to be 100% vulnerable and open – I had to be willing risk everything!
Oh wait! I already had!
Well I didn’t have anything left and I had nothing left to loose except the giant-ass fear that got me in this mess. What better time to start to consciously work with myself – to show myself love instead of hate. To work the constant voices that inside me that said how much of a loser I was. You know the voices I am talking about. I called them the “itty-bitty-shitty committee”.
Wait! IDEA! What if I started to collaborate with all the fear and the false beliefs in a totally different way than I had ever done before. Clearly trying to muzzle them was not working – I was exhausted because I was using the fear to justify more fear and beliefs that were even more dogmatic. And now I could see that using these fears and beliefs as clues to the puzzle of me, I could actually show myself that they were absolutely made up by my mind and not real at all. What a revelation!
WHOA! The ‘Real Consciousness Work’ is serious shit! But what I also discovered is that it can always be light and hilarious too. Over the last few years I have gotten pretty good at catching myself when I am afraid; working with this fear in an effort to show myself that it is possible to live a life not driven by fear in the mind. Every fear we have is an opportunity to investigate to change our minds. Fear loses its power over you when you invite it in as just ‘ information to change’. When you get in the habit of showing the hell up with curiosity nothing can really scare you any more, and you can begin to live not from the mind, but effortlessly in the heart.
Teaching BodyTalk and CLI for me these days is not a way to hide any more but a way to expose my fears to resolve them as remain in service to myself. I choose to live from the perspective that consciousness comes first and I am dedicated to being the best student and example for myself and for others who wish to do the same.
Thank you to all those brave individuals who have chosen to be collaborators on this path of ‘in service to Self’.
Welcome, we’re glad you’ve arrived! ! !
What is in service to SELF?
How do I know when I am acting in service to SELF?
What is the difference between selfish, selfless and in service to SELF?
It seems to me that anything I do from a motivation of FEAR (which is everything) is selfish and/or selfless – looking out for myself and doing my best to get my needy greedy agenda met however I can, regardless of anyone else. Whether I am open about this (selfish) or secretive (selfless) the goal is the same – take care of my own needs.
The very nature of the concept of in service to SELF is that there is no fear, attachment, judgement, or agenda. It is simply naturally and effortlessly inspired activity in the flow of the universe.
Every activity I can do can either be done in fear or to resolve fear OR without fear in a natural flow with no agenda or outcome needed.
Take the BodyTalk Access Routine for example. I can do this routine because I am afraid of disease and suffering and pain, or I can do this routine simply because it helps me to be more present to myself in awareness without any conditions.
Imagine what each of these activities looks like if they are done in fear or if they are happening in the flow.
Show the hell up
Physical practices like exercise
Awareness sessions like BodyTalk
Nurturing with food
What do you do in service to SELF?
I recently became aware of the school shooting in Florida. The online backlash that I see includes blaming the school, parents, gun legislation, mental health system, etc.
Honestly folks! Is all this blaming working?? In my humble opinion, I don’t think so.
So what to do, practically speaking?? Well, if this incident and others like it trigger an overreaction in myself, and I am aware of it, then I can engage the CLI process.
Here’s my CLI:
Story: School shooting and noticing in the news how everyone is whining and raging about who to blame!
Things: school, guns, shooting, violence, gun laws, health system, security at the school.
School should be safe and secure places for students
School should not allow students to be violated.
Location: school, lower gut
How am I acting out violating toward the school 1st?
I am acting out violating by not even having this
school or its community in my awareness at all.
I am completely unaware of other far away communities
I am also attached to safety in my own backyard and by doing so I push out violence to everyone else so I don’t have it in my home.
Any buts?? No! I can totally see how this was my attachment to safety and my behaviour first.
Release and let go of the attachments. Thank you!
So what does freedom beyond fear really mean? Well it is CLI like this that allow me to solve my own fear and the attachments that go with it. The most important transformation is from fear to gratitude. With this work I can be free of labels, fear of loss, dependency, time, the need for certainty, free of the part of me that requires an answer, and ultimately free of the fear of myself and others in life itself!
In order to liberate myself, solving the fear that drives every thought and action is the key. When I liberate myself I automatically liberate all others.
In the end I cannot ever leave the fear trap unless I know I am in it! Once you know you are in it, action is required of YOU not everyone else! CLI is such a wonderful way to fall in love with yourself, using your own intuition, a natural expanded whole-brain knowing, as a trusted partner in life. This allows me to cooperate with events instead of controlling, avoiding, and suffering.
My vocation in life is to solve the fear at the center. This is a combination of surrender to every opportunity in an imaginative and collaborative way on the path to unconditional gratitude.
Fear transformed becomes an inquiry and an open-ended question. The seed for health is the information and awareness in the conflict or illness.
With every fear-based belief release, I increase my capacity for love and gratitude with no bargaining or expectations.
Fear is no longer my prison!
“It’s an idea as old as the hills.” Gandhi
As you all know I do a lot of reading for the purpose of expanding myself. Recently I found myself reading about Gandhi and his idea of ‘satyagraha’. I realized as I was investigating this concept, that Conscious Living Investigation (CLI) is satyagraha! WOW!
When I think about our world today and how our political selves attempt to manage and cope with problems, I realized that from a place of fear and combat, solving problems is never possible. Fighting each other is actually not the answer! We will need to create a paradigm shift in the way we solve problems by removing the focus to the problem itself (the thing) not each other. If we can liberate ourselves into this new way of problem-solving we will expand and grow our capacity to transform.
This means we cannot operate unconsciously as the majority anymore! It means, in the words of Thoreau, “Anyone who discovers a truth becomes a majority of one; a qualitatively different force from the uncommitted majority’. You must be willing to commit your whole vote as it were to the truth, without fear or coercion, for a minority is powerless while it conforms to the majority. An act of the majority should not be able to bind a minority. The numbers of the majority should not count for more than the truth of the minority.
So now we have reached the idea of ‘satyagraha’. This swift and direct soul force is about deriving power from fierce autonomy and total compassion. (Hummm, sounds like CLI to me!) Coercion is not the answer but investigating the truth is! In this way we can focus our attention on the thing in the middle instead of each other as the opposition. In truth there is no opposition only a misunderstanding as we are fooled by our own fears. Fear cannot cohabitate with true love and compassion and gratitude. This is the way of knowing that all real resolution comes from the courage and integrity of self investigation, not the fear-based blaming and shaming of anyone. This is a great departure from the arena most of us know now; one of confrontation, “let make a deal”, seduction, and mind games. Satyagraha transforms conflict at the source – the heart of each participant! This is about changing without the need to defeat or be defeated! Gandhi suggests that by discarding defenses and denials we can allow for insight and truth to be a stronger power than any arms.
Ok so what do we do now? Nice idea but how the hell do we accomplish this? Where’s the how??
After all my years studying I believe I have shown myself how. A daily practice of presence moment to moment aimed at reducing and perhaps some day eliminating the fear based life I once led. Of course as you know CLI and the BodyTalk System are two ‘hows’ based in the same philosophy – heal the split mind to heal everything! I lead myself as a majority of one, transforming my perception of myself. If this example helps you do the same or invites you to come along – perfect!
“It matters not how small the beginning may seem”, Thoreau.
“Show the Hell UP!!”, Kelley Burry
Parenting yourself is a way to parent children without blame. This is a way to take the blame out of parenting, whether you are blaming your kids, spouse or self.
This class is for parents, teachers, guidance counsellors, principles, grand parents, law enforcement, or anyone in a role of leadership.
CLI is about learning to consciously parent yourself, as we learn this new perspective you realize thatvyou’re the only person you need to parent. If the world is a reflection of you, then your children are a reflection of you also. This type of conscious parenting is about leading by example.
We are not learning a new way to manage children, but how to apply the CLI philosophy to stop blaming and to start to see that every challenge is an opportunity for self realization.
Through this work will emerge not only a new parent or leader, but a new family.
To be In the Middle is to be choicelessly aware of all that is.
I first became aware of this saying through reading Pillars of Consciousness, a book written by the guru Osho, given to me by a friend some years ago. Buddha is responsible for this saying, “to be in the middle”. In the middle means not one or the other – neither! Choicelessly aware of all that is. When we are conscious in a choiceless way we can embrace everything. Can you imagine in life being in non-attachment state in all things? Sounds impossible right? On the other hand, how is it not the case naturally, if at my core I am Divine?
When we are born, the experience of being rejected by the mother and pushed into the world creates vast amounts of fear and aloneness. We would call this Separation Consciousness (separation from Divine). This fear causes us to act out on the need to be safe by judging everything, forming attachments and opinions to cope with the feeling of being alone. We call these false belief systems and they reside in the mind. These are our recipes and rules for life.
When you have let go of all opinions and attachments to either of the extremes the extremes disappear! You have arrived in the middle. But wait, if there are no extremes then there will not be a middle either.
Extremes are not really opposites but complimentary sides of a concept, all part of a process of the whole. All complimentaries contribute to the whole and whole is the ‘goal’ (which is the journey)! To understand this is to liberate and transform yourself from all sides and the middle!
Unity of all complimentaries and the middle is all-inclusive.
So the question remains - HOW??
Staying in the process, continuing along the journey, requires an expansive daily practices that allows you to integrate this new perspective and drop the opinionated mind. In my experience, on my journey, The BodyTalk System and Conscious Living Investigation are my daily practice on my path - I hope you will join me!
“I have nothing to offer”, said my friend.
It is everyone else’s burden to make up
for what I won’t contribute – Myself!
Erich Fromm once wrote, “no great radical idea can survive unless it is embodied in individuals whose lives are the message.” The transformed self is the medium. The transformed life is the message.
Why make my awareness practice second nature?
Everything is me – I am my own teacher!
Commitment to daily awareness practices has become a way of life for me. The stress in my life a few years ago was so great and nothing I ‘tried’ seemed to help. The drugs, physical fixes, vacations, emotional therapies, diets, and coping activities (-aholic therapy) did not work to ease my pain. I was looking for a fast, one-time forever fix, and of course, nothing worked. What I didn’t understand is that I wasn’t broken. What I needed to do was find the middle inside myself. The place beyond the intellectual and emotional mind of unconditional, the place of non-judgmental love and gratitude for myself, just as I am.
We are all capable of living the Middle Way.
This is your invitation to join me in your own process to live your Middle Way.
There is no quick fix! In fact, there isn’t even an destination. This process requires you to keep showing up every moment of every day because it’s a journey, it is only a journey with no beginning and no end.
The process is the key – focus on the journey instead of the end goal; the means are the end and the journey is the destination! Learning rather than storing information; caring rather than keeping; participating rather than postponing; opportunities rather than conflicts. There is the courage inside you to commit all your energy to the practice of self awareness.
This is a moment to moment attention you do out of love and understanding for yourself, in the pursuit of wholeness. It is your only purpose in this dimension on this planet! Whether you accomplish this as a plumber, teacher, or health practitioner, it doesn’t matter. The only process you have in this life is the journey resolving yourself. Activities are done with the awareness that in this very moment is an opportunity to realize your Divine wholeness with all the Universe. Therefore, wholeness is also a process.
There is only one thing in the way – my fear-based mind! My mind tells me that this process is impossible and futile, definitely not worth the effort!
“The Great Smoking Mirror” is a Cheyenne saying. The great smoke screen of my personal illusions can be pierced when I am willing to look at myself and see that my obsession with my personal self is a myth. The part of the fearful self that insists on being only one is shattered by the realization that every life-form holds an equal part to the solution of my wholeness.
My fear-based mind fractures myself, and to keep me safe it hides pieces of me in everything all over the world both close and far from me. The criticism of myself and others holds no weight in this true light of the self-reflection. The smoke screen can no longer operate! All I need to do is break the cycle of the false illusion! For most of us this requires a steady committed effort, kind of like hammering a nail. (Think of all the misadventures that can arise when you hammer in a nail).
There is a Mayan saying “I am another one of myself”. Every life form reflects every other life form and all originate from the same Source. Unity eliminates all types of elitist ideas and Separation Consciousness. The view that all other humans are unique expressions of myself would eliminate the need for war and conflicts.
So I have chosen to fall in love and gratitude for every exiled part of me and welcome it home without the need to judge it or fix it. This is the philosophical process that I choose to walk and live – not just talk about as an idealistic, intellectual goal.
The fourth dimension not another place; is a process immanent within us.
Perhaps you, my dear reflections, will choose to join me?
Manifesting the Middle Way - A new support program by Show the Hell Up to anchor, strengthen and facilitate your practice of Conscious Living Self Awareness.
Join CLI developer and instructor Kelley Burry for weekly live online guided practice.
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Special offer for January 2018: $43.50 + NS HST = $50 per month (starting January 8th)
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